They always say getting old sucks, but the alternative is worse. Some days I agree some days I think, is it?, really?
I am lucky in as much as I don't even take a blood pressure pill anymore at 64. Yeah I have arthritis, it destroyed my hips but been great since surgery. Had to drop down in calibers because of it in my thumbs. But over all, I still do pretty much what I want, even though I generally do it alone because my friend and dad are gone who were my buddies.
I look at my mother, the only parent left us. She is frail, and fragile, she is scared, she takes a lot of meds and she cannot do a lot these days. But she still lives alone at 89 so could gmbe worse.
Then I look at my wife, a year younger than me. Terrible arthritis in her back, knees and hands, in constant pain. She now has CHF, brought on most likely by her having chemotherapy 20 years ago according to her Dr. Humidity above say 50 percent makes it so she cannot even breath. And even on good days mild exertion leaves her breathless. She was such a strong, vibrant woman, now she is a shell, in pain and scared to leave the house by herself. I wonder some days how long she can take it, or will have to endure it.
Some days, I wonder about these golden years.
