Yes, welcome to the forum AliOop. The posters here have given good advice, one and all. I concur with those that say renting a few at your neighborhood (or closet) Gun range is a smart option. You could try both pistols (striker fire and hammer fire), and revolvers. For carrying after a permit is obtained, depending on how you will be carrying (i.e. Holster - Inside the Waistband (IWB), Outside the Waistband (OWB), Appendix Inside Waistband (AIWB), shoulder rig, pocket, or Bellyband, Fannypack, Pocketbook (if Female), etc.), could depend on the size of the handgun you may want. Compact and Sub Compact pistols and short barrel revolvers are easier to conceal. If you want to use the same gun as a home defense gun as well, a larger barrel/frame gun may be preferred due to a larger sight picture with more manageable recoil due to greater weight (Although one could become proficient with smaller compact/sub compact pistols and revolvers with training to use as a home defense gun).
I bought my two first guns in 2012, I too wanted to get my carry permit and decided to get Striker fire 4.25" barrel Smith & Wesson M&P 9mm full size pistol. It felt good in my hand and I immediately signed up for a training course before either carrying it or firing it at the range. I have since gone to smaller subcompact pistols like the Springfield Armory Hellcat and own several Striker Fire / Hammer Fire & revolvers as well as several rifles.
I am not recommending any particular firearm, The Smith & Wesson I first bought and liked, may feel horrible in you hands, that's why it's recommended that to try to hold several and rent to shoot the ones that feel right to you. After (or before), you have purchased the one your desire, It's imperative that you take an instructor led course to go over safety and how to properly handle and shoot your firearm BEFORE you shoot it by yourself or start carrying it. Good luck with whatever you decide.
